addicted to
i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
it's the passion that drives you
endorphins
pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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today is one of them.
then i go all out to make myself feel worse by stuffing my face with all sorts of junk. boy do i feel worse now.
it's too late. i'm not cut out for this anymore. too many things have changed.
now i'm just lost. i'm not that person i used to be anymore. i can't handle early morning runs or self-training. it's too draining. i hate the new pool cos it's so small and in any case i hardly get the chance to go down there since sch trainings are occupying tuesdays and thursdays now.
this is just so wrong. my body's not conditioned for this. only God knows how long it'll take to get it back. by then it'll be too late for any of the cross competitons. you don't get a body you worked 2 and a half years to condition back in a matter of months i'm sure.
i hate running i hate running i hate running i hate running I HATE RUNNING.
enough running.i want my swims and bike sessions back. then again i think i just want to get my old body back and then laze around and do nothing. training is stupid. i'm eventually going to have to stop for exams anyway. why the hell should i even bother to build something that's going to be crushed anyway.
IT'S TOO LATE :( hate hate hate hate running.
the future is a blur. with no light at the end of the tunnel. stupid stupid stupid i have no future.